It Feels Like Fresh Air

Finally feeling like I am getting over this god awful
bronchitis. I have coughed and hacked so much
till I have thrown my back out I believe.
Damn asthma.... it never fails everytime
I get some type of chest cold it takes over.

After my Junebug hauled my behind to the
doctor Thursday they put me on a regimen
of Avelox and Prednisone. Needless
to say the steriods make you feel like you
could put your head thru a plate glass
window but they help. Whatever it is..its
contagious cause the babies have gotten it
and June is fighting it off with her
superpowers... haha

Sunday we spontaneously got up and went to
Folly Beach for the day. We walked all the
way down to Morris Island Lighthouse.
It was very relaxing and peaceful. Whenever
we go there it feels like home. We are
planning a camping trip as soon as the weather
permits and warms a little at night. One thing
that was so disturbing during our outing is
all the homes for sale on the island. Its just
proof of the dying economy and the strain on
America. We noted a couple of places and
took down numbers of some possible vacation
spots to rent. It was very refreshing to walk
with my babies and my sunshine and just not
worry about nothing.....except Stacie falling
down over the rocks....lol She is so very
accident prone. God Help US!!!

We will most likely have puppies in
approximately 60 days. Yay!! I am
so excited. We enjoy raising those babies from
birth till they take their place with their new
forever homes. Yes....yes things seem to be
getting back to the way life is suppose to be.
How easy it is to loose sight
of whats most important to you. Life is
about mistakes, choices, ideas, chaos, love,
hate, anger and all the other emotions.
Thats what makes it so worth living.
There is too much beauty in this world not
to live it to the best of your ability. It takes
me back to a movie we recently revisited....
"Into the Wild". We love that movie because
Christopher McCandless didnt want to fall
prey to all his parents lies and deceptions
of the world. He wanted to see it for himself
and not answer to anyone but himself. In
the end he realized though that happiness
is not worth anything if you are not sharing
it with someone. I am happy to be sharing
mine with three wonderful people.

I must say...things have been made right.
Valentines Day was the start of it all. I
took my love to our favorite restaurant...
where last Valentines Day got disrupted.
We have started over...and starting over
feels good and it feels right. I dont want
to be with anyone else but her. Regardless
of all the crazy stuff we have been through....
I love her with every ounce of my being
and I know she loves me just the same. I
thank the stars and heavens that they
kept their hands in this and have always
lead us back to each other. She is my
sunshine and I am her Queen. Its how it is...
its how its always been.

Some try to understand and pick it apart
but you cant. Until you have truly
experienced the love like we have you cant
understand it. People move between each
other like changing of their clothing on a
daily basis. Using people for what they
need and then discarding them for the
vultures to pick over....they pretend to
understand. I hope and pray that one
day everyone will get to feel as loved
as I do and feel what its like to love
someone so much you would go to any
links to keep it. No ones perfect...no one
has all the answers, but we are learning
as we go.

Love looks good on us......

Life Goes Full Circle

So its way past time to update on life.

Lots of things have transpired in the last three
months. I can truthfully say that the last quarter
of 2008 was the worst ever. Between the personal
and the financial issues they just about broke me.
After spending the worst Christmas ever alone and
basically the same thing for New Years, it gave me
lots of time to reflect on the past. The past is a
funny thing....its something that we learn from but
its also something that can come to haunt us.
Ghost from the past can rear their ugly heads and
make a fool of us. Sometimes we just sit back and
allow these things to happen...and sometimes we
fight back. After so much disrespect and hurt you
start to become numb to it all. I am not that kind
of person. What happened the end of last and all
of last year to be exact....is the PAST. It is done
and over with and it will NOT control or affect
any of us anylonger. We have become focused on
the present.....the future.

We will no longer be a part of the crazy, drama
infused lives of yesterday. We have re-bonded
and become a force to be reckoned with. With each
passing event we seem to grow stronger and
tighter. She and I have decided that there is
no one and nothing that will cause us to take
our love for granted. We WILL NOT take our
eyes off each other. I truly believe that we
are soulmates....we are each ones true
one and only. Anger and hurt can cause people
to say and do things that are really out
of character. I will never be able to apologize
enough for all the hurt I caused. I am ashamed
of myself. I have a wonderful woman that
is very forgiving. I have forgiven her for all
the hurt also....isnt that what love is all about?
I am finding myself feeling and being different.
I am learning to not be so angry...anger is a wasted
emotion. I spent almost all of last year being
angry. I will not allow myself to get to that
point anylonger.

Spring is on its way and we couldnt be more excited.
Planting flowers and yard work are always wonderful
therapy for us. I personally dislike the winter months.
I can appreciate the season that allows the old to die
off and the new to bloom again just another season
away. We always go to the flower extravaganza
they have at the state farmers market to buy
our flowers for the spring plant.

Steph is getting closer to graduation and it does
me proud that she has turned into such a great
little adult. She has a great life ahead of her
and hopefully with a good head on her shoulders
she will conquer the world. Stacie is still the
Princess and becoming more grown by the minute.
I am proud of my girls. They are great kids.

Well.....thats just a lil tidbit of update.
I will write again soon.